Sunday, 15 February 2015

Heavy Sweetness Ash-Like Frost: Translation (Chapter 21.4: The Male Phoenix and the Female Phoenix)




   Present for my ever loyal readers who have stuck with me regardless of my schedule! Chapter 21 is too long though, I still had to split the last part into 2 halves. Personally, I find this part satisfying in seeing Jin Mi's emotional growth come very close to full circle. 

Chapter 21: The Male Phoenix and the Female Phoenix (Part 4 of 5)

  Today, I came late, I did not know if he had already went to sleep. I searched continuously within the residence but I could not find him. Just as I was about to leave, I was almost stepped on by a demoness who was rushing. Luckily, I jumped away and managed to avoid her.

  "Quick! The Great One wants to find the special cloak that the Second King of Hell had given to the Great One as a tribute! Go and quickly find it!" I heard the demoness shout at the soldiers along the way.

  In one moment, all the soldiers in the residence was running off - they must be heading to the storage huts to find the item. Very quickly, one of the ghost soldiers carried a beautiful ornate jade box and seriously handed it over to the demoness. He could not hide his curiosity and asked, "The Great One has never given a single look to the tributes, why did he suddenly think of this cloak today?"

  "What would a small rank ghost like you know?" The demoness sniffed disdainfully, "Today, The Great One has arranged for a grand banquet at Yu Qiang*'s Palace to celebrate the birthday of Princess Sui He, Head of the Bird Tribes. At the very least, you should know this?"

  The ghost soldier nodded his head.

"This cloak must be the present the Great One plans to give to Princess Sui He. You should know what kind of person Princess Sui He is?"

  "Didn't you already say? She is the Head of the Bird Tribes?" The ghost soldier scratched his forehead and answered confusedly.

  "Stupid!" The demoness poked the horns on his head, "She saved the Great One's life! She is also the Great One's cousin!"

  The ghost soldier's face suddenly had a look of realisation. He asked in a low and sleazy voice, "Do you think the Great One will use his life to repay the debt of saving his life? (The connotation is to marry Princess Sui He)."

  The demoness gave him a look of 'you are hopeless', "If it is to give one's life, it will also be Princess Sui He giving her life to The Great One. But from what I see, if the Great One is willing to marry anyone, it will have to be the Head of the Bird Tribe. I have no time to talk to you already, I must go." She then left.

  I followed her from behind, but very quickly I could not keep up with her. Sadly, my bunny feet were short and I could only hop. Luckily, I remembered the smell of her demoness aura and followed the scent to Yu Qiang's Palace.

  Just as I was about to try and enter the palace, I saw rows of people rushing out. At the head of the rows were Phoenix and Sui He.

  They stopped outside the palace and the rest of the people stopped a distance behind. Sui He lifted up her glistening eyes towards Phoenix then lightly cast her lids down, her eyelashes were long, black and thin, they lightly moved in the evening light and stirred one's heart. "It is fine if you send me out to here. Today, I am very grateful and overjoyed for the Great One to hold a celebration for my birthday."

  Phoenix lightly waved his hand and an accompanying attendant quickly opened a jade box in his hand. That was the jade box I had seen previously. When the jade box was opened, immediately the multi-coloured flashes of dazzling light burst out of the box causing looks of shock from the surrounding demons. Sui He's eyes slightly widened. Phoenix took the cloak out with one action and personally put it on Sui He. He even gently tied the two cotton strings around her neck, "The night wind is freezing, Sui He must not catch a cold."

  Ignoring the shocked looks on all the surrounding demons, he took a step forward and leaned towards Sui He's ears to speak in a low voice.

  When he finally moved away, I saw that Sui He's face was flushed entirely red. I could not tell if it was shyness or joy, but tears actually fell from her glistening watery eyes. She lightly stirred and bit her lips as she looked at Phoenix, it even looked like she was pouting slightly. In half a moment, she recovered her usual composure and informed the surrounding demons, "May the surrounding guards remain as Sui He will leave first. I thank all of you for the invites today." Finally, she left in a sea of polite cries of 'it is nothing! You don't have to be so polite!".

  I did not know if the others heard, but the night wind had sent Phoenix's words into Sui He's ears cleanly into my own, "Since we are so close, why do you call me The Great One?"



  I savoured the bitterness of the night wind and suddenly felt my heart shrinking. The voodoo spell was reaching out its claws to me......

  When I finally regained consciousness, everyone had retreated and Phoenix had returned into the palace. I heard the music within the palace and during the gap when the guards were being changed, I quickly snuck into a shadowy corner of the palace hall.

  In the palace hall, there were flickering lights, red silk, the intoxicating scent of alcohol, and beauties everywhere. There were twelve exotic female demoness dancing with their bare naked feets, golden bells tied around their ankles, giving off a lovely crisp sound as they danced. It was like a hynoptic spell that caused one to lose one's senses.

  There were no lamp stands in the palace hall, only lanterns of fire carried in the beautiful servants' hands, the red lanterns were like the dying blaze of the sun covering the hall in a shimmering faint layer of light, as light as translucent silk.

  Phoenix sat at the central position in the hall as he sipped wine. Flanking both his sides were two females, one pouring wine, one adding food. Phoenix suddenly narrowed his eyes to a corner, he lowered the wine goblet in his hand, and smiled at the female on his right. That smile could hook your soul and the demoness was completely stunned, she lost the grip in her hand and a pair of chopsticks fell down to the ground, her body went limp.

   Phoenix thoughtfully stretched out his hands to support her. The demoness immediately happily fell into his arms. Sensing that Phoenix did not reject her, she completely leaned into his embrace. She hooked her arms around his neck and coquettishly brushed his chest, "The Great One, since Princess Sui He has left and the night is still long, can you spare some of the time for your humble servant?"

  The coldness in Phoenix's eyes did not change but the edge of his lips lightly bent. I could not tell if it was a sign of a smile or permission.

  But the demoness's rationality must have been overwhelmed and she tightened her grip on Phoenix. Phoenix's hand lightly brushed her hair - a simple action, but it was completely intoxicating from him.

  I suddenly remember how he used to often brush my long hair, helping me pick out the falling leaves that had landed in my hair from the wind. Even if there were no leaves, he would like to slowly comb through my hair. Sometimes he would comb my hair for such a long time that I would get annoyed and turned my head around, but he would not stop, only saying, "There are still some leaves, I will help you take it out, you better not move."

  I did not know why, but I suddenly realised that the steadfast gaze he used to give to me was actually so precious.



* In chinese mythology, Yu Qiang is the god of the sea and god of plague (and even god of the wind).

Comments: Although reading Jin Mi's longing for Phoenix may seem sad, I do think it has a 'she deserves it' connotation to it. I like the parallel - Phoenix used to stare at Jin Mi all the time but Jin Mi was unknowing, but now Jin Mi stares at Phoenix all the time with new found consciousness. 


My personal favourite is the last part when Jin Mi realises, finally realises, what she has lost. 


50 comments:

  1. thanks for the great post gain!!

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  2. *again
    at the end i was reminded of the "let her go" by the passengers, it really speaks for jin mi's late realization of what she has lost. better late then never,the story only get better and better now that jin mi is emotionally active. it has added so much richer flavor to it.
    as for phoenix, i'm wondering if he actually does like sui he, his change is very interesting and a bit worrying.

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    1. Hello lyn shaiza, thanks for reading ♡

      I agree that jin mi's conflicting emotions make the story richer and makes her more relatable.

      Hahaha, I will ask you - those whispered words Jin Mi heard, does it sound like Phoenix at all?

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    2. so phoenix is putting on a show for jin mi? or are you implying something and i'm too slow to catch on.hahah

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    3. hahah after reading down the other comments i think I've finally fall into the right track. the next chapter would be terrific!

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    4. Hahaha! It's fun reading what others think right? :)

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  3. Thanks for the chapter!

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  4. Awww...it's so sad to see JM looking at Pheonix womanize these other women. I know she kind of deserves it for not having appreciated what she had before....but you have to sympathize with the fact that she had the unfeeling pill ....so she wasn't allowed to feel and appreciate what she had. Night knew enough to manipulate her into acting with just the facts/ her head....so no matter how much he really cares for her...I just can't forgive him. Like another reader said...I can't wait to see their "confrontation"....since we only get things from JM's perspective....I'm very curious to see what's going on in that Pheonix head right now and why he's doing what hes doing....

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    1. Me too. I can understand why Night chose that path for himself but I won't be able to forgive him as Jin Mi.

      Well, the next part is explosive to say the least.

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  5. �� decembi ��

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  6. Luv U tons ������

    - samie

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  7. I feel bad for Jin Mi. But its not really her fault, I mean, she ate the unfeeling pill afterall. How could one still have a feeling for someone when she already ate that damn thing? Besides, she doesn't even know about the pill anyway.

    I think the real victim here is Jin Mi, not Night nor definitely Phoenix. She doesn't even know about the 'voodoo spell' as she called it. :( If I could meet Jin Mi, I would hug her and pat her head. She's most definitely doesn't deserve any of this. If I were to be honest, I'd want Jin Mi and Night to be together and not with Phoenix. Phoenix can go to hell for all I care, He's just a selfish b@stard, like he killed Jin Mi's dad. And for what? Just to 'protect' his good for nothing mom? Ugh, IF he really wanted to protect her so much, he could've just do something else. Jin Mi just met her father, and now Phoenix killed him because of a petty reason? Man.. Jin Mi is definitely doesn't deserve this. Other than Jin Mi, I really, really pity Night so much that my heart ached for him.

    LOL Really sorry for ranting out here, but I really can't help it. And THANK YOU FOR THE UPDATE! :D So, how are you feeling? Are you still sick? My mom told me that turmeric is really good, esp for tummy. Boil turmeric in a pot and add some sugar so that it won't taste bland or bitter to drink. :)

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    1. Thank you for your 'rant', I really love it when people get passionate about the book and I'm really happy to discuss! We don't all need to share the same views, it's sometimes more fun that way.

      I think Jin Mi's behaviour was explainable - but whether it's excusable entirely is open for debate. She never had any real evidence that Phoenix killed the Water God but murdered him in cold blood, in revenge, after manipulating him in believing she loved him.

      We forgive Jin Mi because we know she has genuine feelings for Phoenix, but can he trust her again?

      I love all these hard questions. Thank you so much for reading and commenting ♡

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  8. Driving me crazy with these teaser. When are they going to finally meet face to face and find the truth about each other. She is the one who save him not stupid bird girl. Awwwww. How much longer. Lol thanks for the hard work of translating. I wish I know chines.

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    1. A while longer. But there is a kind of confrontation in the next update ♡ thanks for reading

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  9. Thx decembi! I thought you'd updated it next week, what a pleasant surprise :)
    Ooooh.. Phoenix is playing a dangerous game, why do I have the feeling, if he were to see Night and Jin Mi lovey dovey, he'd drop all the ladies and go straight to war lol

    Lola

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    1. Welcome Lola ♡ I said I would try and update again this week and it's nice to be able to do so. Love is WAR when it comes to Night and Phoenix

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  10. yay thanks so much decembi! wah but wasn't it her who saved him? why does he think its sui he?

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    1. Jin Mi hid herself and Sui He showed up at the pt of his revival

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  11. Firstly, decembi, do you never sleep??? And second, awesome, short, tasty. -sq

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    1. Hahaha I do!! Thanks for reading ♡

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  12. Will Phoenix ever know the truth about who really saved him?

    Considering the above comments, it does make me wonder how culpable Jin Mi was in her actions toward Phoenix while she had the unfeeling pill. That’s why I was so curious to see the real Jin Mi without the pill. Since the pill’s side-effects weren’t discussed much in the story, we can better gauge the extent of the pill’s effects based on the difference in Jin Mi’s actions (before vs after).

    So far, she went to great lengths to revive Phoenix, but she apparently did so without even understanding why (and even gave the ‘voodoo’ as her excuse). Nor has she exhibited yet any suspicions about the ‘lack of evidence’ (and, imo, obvious manipulations from a certain Night) regarding her daddy’s death.

    Considering the length of time (story-wise) that’s transpired within these few chapters, her prolonged lack of understanding (and silent stalking) is disappointing. I guess I just wish there had been a greater difference (before vs after) and also that she could understand her own feelings, even if it takes her some time (but not this much time!!!!) to process her own heart. I’d just like to think that the feelings of our heart are like a language we can eventually and inherently understand ourselves without the need for some else to translate/define for us.

    But maybe I’m speaking too soon. Either way, thanks for the chapters!!! :)

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    1. Hello! Thank you for reading and sharing so deeply about the story ♡

      I think self knowledge has always been a dominant theme in stories and most famously, the heart of many greek tragedies is a lack of self knowledge. Jin Mi could not feel the emotional stirrings as much (there are hints that she is not entirely affected), but the pain and grief is very new to her. I actually enjoy her matter of fact (I like this aspect of her) - i am in pain, how do i stop this pain? As ignorant as she may seem, she is a woman of action ♡

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  13. I hope the misunderstanding clears up soon. Actually, now because I'm impatient and don't do well with angst. I don't believe that it's possible for Phoenix to be close to another female because I sense that he is the passionate, obsessive, and devoted type. Can't wait to see how this mess gets mopped up! Thanks again for your hard work!

    Lily

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    1. Welcome Lily ♡

      To be fair, Dian Xian never slackens in her plot, it's only that I can only translate as my schedule permits hahaha

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  14. Compared to all the stuff Phoenix went through, I don't feel sorry for Jin Mi at all. Anyways, thank you decembi!

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  15. I actually feel really sad for Phoenix. Like decembi has said, Jin Mi just acted rashly without proof of his misdeed of killing Water God. What if she is wrong? Killing a person for mistakenly thinking a person killed another is just tragic. I wonder how both of them can reconcile their feelings toward each other now that Phoenix is revived and understood that Jin Min killed him and Jin Mi who already spat out the pill and slowly realizing her love for Phoenix. I wonder when will Phoenix realizes that Jin Mi is the one who revived him and does he realize that Jin Mi has been masquerading as a rabbit to visit him daily?

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    1. Some of your questions are I think answered in the next update.

      I agree! Jin Mi bears part of the blame, hence the pain and penance she has to go through.

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  16. thank you for the wonderful surprise ... u r a darling! hope to see next chapter soon.

    have a jolly cny celebration.

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    1. You too!!! I'm excited for chinese new year <3

      Glad you enjoyed it.

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  17. This chapter made me tear up a little. I now wish someone would brush through my hair and pick the leaves out for me~

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    1. Aww! I agree! It's very sweet and another emotional thread joining the two together

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  18. You are spoiling us rotten... and I love it!

    To be honest and accurate, I root for Phoenix, not for Jin Mi. Her actions were cold and thoughtless considering that she had no proof Phoenix killed the Water God. As you said, she was quite manipulative in her seeking of revenge.

    I like that Jin Mi is slowly realizing the depth of her feelings for Phoenix, and also how precious Phoenix's feelings were. I will be interested to see how Phoenix will treat her... Seems to me that he is trying to make her jealous! Pretty sure he loves her regardless... haha

    You mentioned that love is war when it comes to Night and Phoenix... Should we prepare ourselves for a heavenly war?! I mean, their first war was stopped short by Jin Mi... It would only be fair that Jin Mi takes Phoenix's side this time! lol

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    1. Glad you love it ♡

      A long and thoughtful analysis! I glad there are fans to both sides, because in the end, perhaps both are victims. But, I do think Jin Mi has lessons to learn so her path of knowledge and redemption is good.

      My lips are sealed! ♡

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  19. Thank you decembi! When I was previously reading the part wherein Jin Mi was about to stab Phoenix, I got the impression that she was somewhat in a trance or spell. I don't know if this was really the case or just what I want it to be.

    I am amazed at Phoenix, because even with such pain, hurt and betrayal, he is not taking revenge and hurting Jin Mi. It's obvious that he knows that she's there otherwise how will she remain unharmed and undetected even with those rabbit ears?

    I love that he's making her jealous and that she realizes the precious moments with him.

    I only wonder how Jin Mi can redeem herself and how Phoenix can trust her again.

    Elise

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    1. Hello Elize, thanks for reading and sharing your thoughtful analysis. I think Dian Xian deliberately wrote those scenes in an ambiguous way to leave room for interpretation.

      Definitely the redemption of Jin Mi is the key final arc ♡

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  20. Thank you and happy Chinese New Year

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  21. cant wait to c the ending of this so excited

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  22. This is what Jin Mi's mother was afraid would happen to her daughter: to suffer a heartbreak like her. Sad thing is, by feeding her the Unfeeling Pill, it only caused worst disasters to happen which could have been avoided if Jin Mi was more "self-aware". I'm really loving the plot!

    Thanks for the update!

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    1. Hello, welcome ♡ i totally agree. I like the theme of self knowledge that plays through the story.

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  23. Thanks for the update!! Love this story...
    When is the next update?
    Can't wait...............

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    1. Harder to predict cos I am in London now. But I hope to update by the end of the week <3

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  24. The plot is captivating! I read everything in one sitting and I want to thank you for your translation. As I also fan-translated a book series from Japanese to English I really appreciate your dedication! And please stay strong until the end. Thank you once more.

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    1. Wow! Translating from Japanese to English is really cool and I have so much respect for that <3

      Thank you for reading! I think we are near the end, but definitely still have more to soldier on! <3 will update as far as I can.

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